eroded to bits.

it ends here.

2009-05-25T00:57:00.004+08:00

post 310;

guess this blog didn't last very long,
&neither did my hiatus.
but either ways, i'm shutting this blog down. or rather, just not posting in it.
i guess memories are just hard to erase.

and yes, i finally decided to try livejournal once &for all: click!
so.. relink, rebookmark, re-whatever.
if you have livejournal (and you're nice), add away! haha. those who i already have friends with my livejournal shopping account, sorry, but i guess you've got to readd. SORRY for the trouble :(

if livejournal proves to be terrible to me (or i prove to be pure lousy at using it), then i'll.. decide from there.

so.. yes.
it ends here.

shutting down.

2009-05-15T02:01:00.002+08:00

maybe i expect too much from everybody.
maybe i'm too judgmental for my own good.
maybe i really should crawl underground &hide there.

f***.

with effective of this post,
i'm going on a hiatus. or perhaps i'll shut this blog down.

let's see how long i last.

number 9.

2009-05-12T22:52:00.004+08:00

you know how sometimes you like to think &wish everything was the same as the past?
i feel that now.

and i wish that number 9 turned into a 1.

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in need of a fresh start.

2009-05-12T01:39:00.003+08:00

EXAMMMMS are (definitely) over! (:
and it feels weird not studying.

went shopping, bumming, bright's early birthday celebrations, for marcus' boating trip &for suppers.
thanks to my dearboy &sab for being there for me when i was down :(

PLUS i've stopped playing mousehunt &mafia wars, all because of restaurant city! HAHA.

will update more soon! contemplating shifting the livejournal or some other host,
because i'm in desperate need of a fresh start.
AND. i can just feel my mac dying on me. OMGGGGG.

the end is near.

2009-05-05T22:58:00.002+08:00

FOUR PAPERS DOWN, only one more to go!

thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday thursday .

sigh. everyone seems to have finished exams alr.

confessions; because only you would listen.

2009-05-02T01:39:00.003+08:00

shopping shopping shopppppping.
I NEED TO SHOPPPPP NOW. studying in smu hasnt been good, because everything becomes a "so near yet so far" mentality! hahaha. but other than that, company has been great. EVEN UNAWESOME marcus seng.

i want my onitsuka tigers :(
tokidoki onitsuka tigers (:
but so dammmmn ex. GROWLS.

HELLO ANYONE WANT TO CONTRIBUTE TO THE BUYADEHERONITSUKATIGERS FUND?
:D

hahahahaha.

turning tables.

2009-04-30T00:52:00.004+08:00

WHOOT check this out:
and this one:
and this:
MUAHAHA. everything changes when the tables are turned.

AND. i just turned down the internship that i was suuuuper bent on getting.
GAH. i hope i dont regret this decision.
so this holidays, i plan to:
1) get a part-time jobbb
2) play alot of TOUUUUCH (if possible. i need to find people! haha)
3) go for artscamp (EUGENE TOH, GIMSIONG, CLEMENT &XIAOHUI i will force you FOUURRR to go)
4) finish up oweek
5) take special sem..? (maybe, maybe not).
~~6) TRAVVVEL~~ totally ruined, thanks to swine flu. GROWLS.

cant wait. really need a break from everything's that been going on this sem.
TWO papers down! three more to go :(

because everything's worked out exactly the way i imagined it to be.
and i'm not happy.

faith.

2009-04-27T21:23:00.003+08:00

mom just got out of the hospital,
granddad's in hospital,
dad's good friend's in hospital.

everyone's in hospital.
:(

"Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen."
- Hebrews 11:1

one paper down. four more to go!

running for the light in the tunnel.

2009-04-26T15:23:00.006+08:00

OMGGG.
one will never really know how stressful it is to speak a full length conversation in cantonese until you try to converse with your grandparents.

trying not to care.
because nothing's going to change anyway.

exams start tmr! :( for me, anyway.
all the best to everyone, whether they've alr started or not.

[edit]
my dad says, "yes, go work. don't be a parasite."

:(
[/edit]

let that city take you in.

2009-04-25T03:51:00.006+08:00

it's 4am &i'm wide awake.
i think i'm getting used to the weird hourrrs. this is NOT good.

been trying to do abit of last minute mugging before the papers start next monday.
headed to serene's just now, and it was surprisingly quiet. TOO quiet, in fact.
they switched off ALL the lights in serene's centre, leaving one lighted near the toilets &in the toilet itself, so it's scary as hell. in fact, if not for the fact that i needed to pee, i would probably have lasted longer (i think).
on a random note, to the person who called my name TWICE (once when i left &once when i got back): dont call out a person's name &conveniently decide that you're not going to acknowledge that you were the one doing the calling. it's IRRITATING. esp at 3.40 in the morning.

on a lighter note,
the hamsters gave birth! (: so now we have FIVVE awesome small babies.
supposedly SIX, according to zhen, but one was eaten :(
pictures up soon! once i get my lazy ass to charge my camera so i can take pictures of them.

okay.
not so awake anymore.

mousehunt ftw.

2009-04-21T00:12:00.003+08:00

signs that one has been playing too much mousehunt.

scenario: zhen's sister thinks that the hamster is pregnant &advises us to buy a new cage to separate the two.
me: "okay! i think it's safer. let's go buy another TRAP tomorrow."

OMGGG. ultimate sadness.

pressing forward.

2009-04-17T22:52:00.002+08:00

2 notable incidents of this ever boring day.

1) i broke TWO hairbands in a week. okay i knew my head was big, but it couldnt have grown THAT fast, can it? :S
2) my dad went to book tickets to CATS without telling my sister &i. sounds good? NO, he did not book tickets for us. he secretly booked tickets for my mom &himself :( WAILS.

i want to go shopping :(
(and to the girls reading my blog, ASOS IS HAVINGGGG A SALE! something i really should not notice, but hey. they drop me emails all the time.)

before the worst.

2009-04-16T01:09:00.002+08:00

before the worst.

alot of things have been running through my mind later.
too many things, in fact.

and. so many things i want to say, but i cant, for obvious reasons. obvious to me, anyway.
sigh.

i think i'm just stressed.

HAPPY BELATED 21ST TO EUGENETOHYEWKEAT aka evil twwwwin (:

bright lights.

2009-04-13T00:04:00.002+08:00

happy easter! (:

okay. belated easter, by the time i publish this entry.
this past one week has been really tiring, and i think i almost died, though thankfully, i didnt.
screw the results (for now.). i will enjoy the thought of only having one project left. unfortunately, it really is quite big, but.. i'll live. i hope.

wednesday: celebrating myboy's belated birthday! (: we went for sakae buffet, then went shopping around for gene's birthday present (:
thursday: breakfast with myboy! (: before heading to school to study &stuff.
friday: tried to study, though it didnt work, cos i was relishing the feel of only having one project left, and there was this uber awesome set of criminal investigations hongkong drama series. went to shop for gene's present in the evening, before heading down to aranda for his birthday (:
hope you like your present my dear twin brother (: happy early 21st!

saturday: study study study. no, it didnt work. once again i was relishing the joy of having only one project. and in that time, i FORGOT about the one project -.-
sunday: sab messaged in the morning, reminding me about that one project! :( so i went home and i tired to rush it out, relishing the inbetween breaks. dinner was at botak jones with the family, where my dad happily decided to call it 'papa jones' instead. P.S.: my dad's new favourite show is "the devil wears prada" -.-

summary: no work has been done. waaails.

i'm sleepy.
zzzZZZ.

no one can ever replace you.

2009-04-07T20:54:00.004+08:00

to the dearest, sweetest boy ever (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY (:

iloveyouu <3
*hugs*

upstairs.

2009-04-05T08:28:00.002+08:00

the people upstairs are moving around again.

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i hate it when people take others for granted.
and i hate it when people mock me.

my dad's doing things for you out of good will, yet you're taking him for granted &expecting him to accommodate to YOUR time and YOUR schedule, both of which he has already done. if you dont want to go from the start, dont drag your bloody feet. take a step back and look at the situation and even a 10 year old can tell you that you're not being the most pleasant thing in the world. i wish my dad would stop treating you so nicely because i've had enough.

and ~~i'm sorry~~ i'm not as perfect as she is, not as smart, not as capable, not as independent, and i'll always be NOTHING compared to that darling of yours.
and i've had ENOUGH. i'm not stupid; i can tell when you're being sarcastic &when you're being nice. so dont expect to get away with everything &expect me to treat you nicely. this sarcasm has stretched since chinese new year, and i remember every single incident, even though i dont remember every single word.

so stop putting people down to make yourself feel better.

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yes, i'm bitter.
this is what happens when you grow up with people putting you down,
comparing you to others and discretely telling you that you'll never be as good as the next person.

".. do not fear, for i am with you;"

2009-04-02T00:36:00.002+08:00

so today is april fools', and jingwei managed to prank me -.- and all it took was one stupid sms.
marcus tried to lie and say the ramly burger stall caught fire WHEN THERE WAS NO RAMLY BURGER STALL TODAY. hahahaha.

plus 1st of april marks the day i've started mafia wars.

this week so far,
one project down, one presentation down, another presentation down after tmr!
two more presentations, one project and a 50% test to go.

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amidst this busy period, i've turned my back on God, and now i'm making a u-turn back.
somehow i can only seem to find comfort in knowing that He is with me.

"So do not fear, for i am with you; do not be dismayed, for i am your God. i will strengthen you and help you; i will uphold you with my righteous hand."
- Isaiah 41:10

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happy birthday ASHTONNNN, even thoughh you laughed at my hands, i forgive you :P

Lord, give me strength.

2009-03-31T22:07:00.002+08:00

adeline is..

1) looking at her grades, her CAP, and things to come -> she realizes that perhaps she is NOT cut out for uni-life
2) ~~thinking of quitting school~~
3) trying to find out a way to set her life back on track
4) GOING TO PERSEVERE. SCREW POINT NUMBER TWO.

"In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while, if need be, you have been grieved by various trials."
- 1 Peter 1:6

scared of something i shouldnt be scared of.

2009-03-27T00:59:00.002+08:00

scared of something i shouldnt be scared of.
i typed out the whole message,
but chickened out &deleted it instead.

damn.

into your presence, o Lord.

2009-03-23T00:00:00.005+08:00

to the threesome:
congrats on your baptism! (:

+

bright's play was awwwwesome.
he was the best maniac alive. hahaha. well done mr el brighto :D

happy belated birthday to CHOWWW, letitia, andrea &claire (:

rain, rain.

2009-03-21T15:50:00.003+08:00

adeline is tired.
for more reasons more than one.

rain, rain, go away,
come again another day.

thank goodness i dont need to pee now.

---

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to SHAWNTING aka OLD MAN aka NEIGHBOUR
& SIDNEYWONGGUANJIE aka philo-at-the-deck BUDDY (:

grumbles.

2009-03-15T16:47:00.002+08:00

CAN THE PEOPLE UPSTAIRS PLEASE STOP MOVING AROUND OR MOVING THINGS AROUND WHY MUST YOU MOVE AROUND SO LOUDLY ALL THE TIME THE CEILING PLASTER ISNT THAT THIN HENCE YOU MUST REALIZE THIS MEANS THAT YOU ARE LUMBERING AROUND MORE THAN HALF THE TIME DO YOU KNOW HOW IRRITATING AND DISTRACTING IT IS WHEN SOMEONE IS TRYING TO STUDY AND HOW IT ACTUALLY SOUNDS DAMN FREAKING SCARY AT NIGHT WHEN YOUR CEILING STARTS TO CREAK?!!

snips &snaps.

2009-03-13T19:20:00.003+08:00

MY DEARBOY BOUGHT ME HAMSTERS!
meet snips &snaps (:
ILU DEARBOY <3

unfortunately i still cant convince my mom to allow me to keep them :(
so they're staying with zhen for awhile (:

happy 21st jon (:

2009-03-12T00:00:00.006+08:00

to JONATHAN KAN,
a really sweet/great/supportive friend who's always been there to listen or to give advice, no matter how far apart we've been:

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY!
(i've known you since sec3, but i just realized we dont even have a picture together! so i koped this from your facebook :P)

thanks for always being there to listen whenever i needed someone to talk to,
supporting whatever decisions i make,
and for always making time for me online even though you're busy.

AND STOP APPEARING AS ANONYMOUS! hahaha.

gone.

2009-03-07T22:53:00.001+08:00

okay,
so i deleted it again.

entitled to bitch.

2009-03-05T00:21:00.004+08:00

i'm sick,
the wireless in pgp sucks,
and the fan here confuses me. because to a sick person, a fan at 2nd speed blocks her nose, but the fan at 1st speed makes her feel like she's in the sahara desert without the sand or the camels.

*&^%$^%%&*

*wails*

will growl, but not for food.

2009-03-03T23:01:00.003+08:00

UGHH.

remaining days of the midterm break were okay.
i slacked quite abit (again), despite desperate attempts in telling myself i must work bloody hard to get to where i want to be. midterms breaks are just too tempting for a quick holiday. grumbles.
sunday breakfast with myboy, yixian &kenchin! yx finally got to try mcgriddles. WHOOT. headed to church first, then out with myboy, yixian, kenchin &dean, where one moment we almost died of heat &the next moment we were shivering thanks to the rain. and they didnt get to play soccer in the end, so my sick boy was spared from making a decision on whether to play soccer &dean was left relatively grumpy.

baack to school!
mondays without rah thanks to her environmental stability talk, which left me in the company of jiancheng (jiecheng? i seriously cant deal with names :S). it was also pigday because spud &i headed to the coop for chips &marshmellows, but we came back with lays, sausage pratas, pingpong balls &MY EVER BELOVED KINDERJOY which was previously kindersurprise. WHOOT. it tastes alot better now, i must add. haha.
forced myself to eat dinner after that, for reasons being that it was dinner, and it was no excuse that i was previously being a pig.

today was a sab-less day :(
so i had the company of marcus seng, who kicked my slippers off, stole my slippers, emptied out my pencilbox, etc. GROWLS. and my sexy hung on me before i saved the part of my essay that i was doing, so i almost died of a panic attack. thankgoodness for the word recovery function, or i would have cried a million tears.
social inequalities class
shopping at the bazaar with kristen after that was AWESOME. no, the bazaar wasnt entirely awesome, but company was, and we found good deals :D shirts went for 2 for $12 bucks, and we got 3 crop jackets/tops for $10.
headed back to pgp, then it was dinner with rah! we explored pgp (which really wasnt much), and found out that SHERMAN'S SIDE OF PGP IS SO MUCH NICER THAN OURRRRS. dangggg. and we found the other foodcourt here, so we have a million things to eat &i'm quite excited.

but now i'm sick &dying &obviously grumpy &will growl at the person who next crosses my path.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO EUGENE KOHHH (:

casting me aside.

2009-02-25T02:27:00.003+08:00

adeline does not like being ____.
:(

on a lighter note:
saturday- feiyue! with sis &jess for the first time, before trooping down to ikea (: there was a sale, so it was uuuber fun.
sunday- church, followed by the most AWESOMMMME cousin's night out at brewerkz (: no didi or arcade this year, but it works all the same (:
monday- PGP stayovvvver! finally officially moved in, though i forgot tonnns of things.
went to the deck for a short while before heading for a project group meeting, which ended inconclusive, before going for dinner with myboy (:
met rah, bright &marcus for suppppper! yes, pgp is damn sinful, cos you end up eating suppers &having super alot of snacks in your room 'just in case'.

tuesday- CHRISTINE'S 21st (: at homeclub! it was great catching up with the mg girls, cos i havent met tonnnns of em. and of course, the whole thing would be totally different without the THREE wonderful ladies: rah, sherilyn &jess <3,
my FABULOUS wife-to-be (YES EVERYONE MARK YOUR CALENDARS; we're getting married 090909), joanna zhan <3<3,
my LIT BUDDY, ruth (:
AND my childhood friend, eunnnice aka KY *hugggs*

yes, mgs was a place with a truckload of politics,
but you make the greatest friends you could ever have as well (:

clement's 21st tomorrow!
i'm going to go broke with all the birthdays soon.

happy 21st to CHRISTINE HUANG *hugggs* (:

delayed.

2009-02-20T00:41:00.004+08:00

a delayed post;

to mydearboy (:
thanks for the surprise on fridaythe13th &for being there through the 14th &everything else after that which followed (:
iloveyou <3

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MEETUPS!
with rah, sherilyn &jess at railmall.
plus rah &i explored the salvation army and found seriously coolio stuff. i still want that awesomely reasonably cheap picnic basket, but i've a feeling it's already gone :(
PLUS shopping at lot1 with rah! yes, the whole place has changed like crazy. i feel so old.

VALENTINE'S DAY!
with theboy, sab, michelle, spud &andrew. a whole load of craziness, indulgence in all sorts of sinful food, st. valentine's, snowballs ¬ studying, but it was totally worth it (:
PLUS sab &spud were my DSLR teachers &now i really really really want one.

DINNER!
with theboy, yixian, kenchin, joel, dean &a whole bunch of other people at swensens.
PLUS there were morbid jokes which most probably contributed to my efforts in getting my stomach toned up.

SHIFTING!
with the help of theboy into pgp (: i now have my bedsheet, magicclean &alligator bolster inside.
PLUS i found out that myboy is quite domesticated. he helped me sweep &magicclean my floor :D

HAPPY BELATED 21ST TO CHARISSA KWOK (:

the fear of good things.

2009-02-17T00:45:00.003+08:00

sometimes i feel like just sitting somewhere and not
do anything,
say anything,
see anything or
think of anything.

i fear the onset of good things because bad things always seem to follow.

the best part of me was always you.

2009-02-11T23:49:00.003+08:00

adeline:

a) loves her boy for being here for her through everything she's been through this past week,
b) loves asos for such wonderful customer service,
c) got a room in PGP! yes, it's late, but i want to try out staying in school anyway (:
d) met CHING!
e) is going to meet sherilyn &possibly rah &jess tmr
f) should either be sleeping or studying ¬ blogging
g) has a love-hate relationship with mousehunt
h) will have a room-warming soon, as suggested by yixian
i) is going off.

whoot.
HAPPY ORD TO THE GUYS! (:

cos if i dont, neither will you.

2009-02-07T23:52:00.005+08:00

cos we both know that if i dont, neither will you.

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THURRRSDAY started out horrible.
i went to the bus stop at 8.15am, giving me 45mins to head down for my ONE HOUR LESSON. which was my only lesson on thursday even weeks.
the bus came at 8.30am, but was too packed, so it didnt pick up anyone. that meant half an hour to head down to class.
by 8.40am, THE BUS STILL WASNT THERE despite being peak hour in the morning, so i tried to get a cab but there were either no available cabs or THE TWO EMPTY ONES REFUSED TO STOP. FINALLY got my cab at around 8.48am where i dropped sis off opp sim, then headed down to school.
and my taxi fare happily came up to 12bucks, when it usually only costs me at most 7bucks. PLUS. i was 10minutes late. so much for leaving the house 45mins early to ensure that i reach school on time for a stupid one hour lesson.
GRUMMMBLES.

anyway.
met zhen, tyler &jolene for lunnnch before trooping to the library with ying &chow! (:
tried to be a muggertoad, but it didnt work, cos i ended up settling my stupid singpost problem.
headed down for strudel, which ended off with guitar heroes at my house. YES, there was only one hero: HSUZHENYANG.

friday.
library with zhen &willis! (:
then BAI NIAN at eugene's place, with cute kids, a dog, cards, mousehunt &TONS of gossiping. and to think i hardly even knew what was going on more than half the time. but it was exciting all the same. fun to listen, but definitely not fun to be stuck in it :S
TODAAAY.
MET UP with THE LOVELIEST, CUTEST, MOST ADORABLE NIECE THAT A GIRL COULD EVVVVER HAVE (:

and now i'm freaking tired cos most of my relatives seem to stay in the east, and traveling down felt like i was traveling to JB by some old ulu road that takes eons &eons or something, and ching's coming to my church tmr &i miss that silly girl cos i havent seen her in ten million years, and i have things to pass to her &so many things to say, and..

and now i'm just rambling.

NIGHTYNIGHTS.

things are changing.

2009-02-04T19:47:00.003+08:00

it's been awhile since i've updated!

1) CHINESE NEW YEAR!
it was not very exciting &we got stuck in a jam for almost three hours on the way back,
but cousins, dvds, a harddrive filled with movies, one fujitsu &three macbooks make it all better :D

2) colin's 21st!
(SORRY i couldnt stay for long :()

3) meetups with jon!
yaay to sambal stingray, calamari &ice-cream (:

4) eugene, angmoh &xiaohui came to bai nian!
angmoh left an angpow here &eugene left a phone here -.-
GOODNESS ME.

5) CNY open house at yixian's!
there was worldtour on wii, poker, daidee AND FOOOOOOD.

6) CNY open house at dael's!
zhen's childhood friend, superb laksa &a uber cute baby :D

7) back to school :(
the assignments are piling in &i'm seriously dying.

adeline is going to be a muggertoad starting tmr.

keeps getting better.

2009-01-23T00:24:00.002+08:00

this week in a flash.

sunday was a day of ups &downs.
and everything made me sort of confused &upset, but things will get better.
i hope.

monday was a day of NECKTIVITY.
and the stand in lecturer was indescribable &rah &i almost died.
ugh.

tuesday was a day of the brain &greed.
and i had lessons with a real brain, was told by sab that it looked delicious, was also told to 'jiggle' the brain, ate non-stop, had icecream with myboy &dinner with jon at timbre.
meeting up with the secondary sch pal was great, &it was a wonder i had appetite despite the encounter with brains.

wednesday was a day of lectures.
and i actually found sn lecture really interesting &should have considered majoring in that instead.
HAHA.

thursday was a day of joy&sadness.
and i met up with rah, charissa &bright for lunch, passed ivan his bus ticket home, finally met willis, sherman, xinle &jasminnne &headed to nuh to visit my mom's friend's son who had a motorcycle accident &was in the ot for 6hours.
and i didnt even get to see him cos he was still in the ot when i went -.-

heading up to m'sia for chinese new year in a few hours!
shuuuucks. i wish ipoh would actually set up an airport so we could fly up instead of driving in :(

happy birthday to xiaoan (:
happy belated birthday to nancy, cheryl &david (:

trying my best.

2009-01-18T01:00:00.001+08:00

i dont think i can do this.
but i'm trying my best.

i'm sorry.

broken strings.

2009-01-16T22:57:00.003+08:00

somewhere.

one week of school has passed,
and NO, i'm definitely not looking forward to tutorials starting.
the workload's pretty heavy, so i'm thinking of dropping one mod if things get too bad.

HAPPY 23nd BROTHER! (: (SORRY SORRRRRY SORRY i thought you were 22, but HEYYYY. i said you were younger! HAHA.)
we tried to surprise him at fosters with mahjong cupcakes, but he knew something was up &even talked about the facebook thread that we had -.-
and they had my belated birthday present! two tops (one sized S &the other sized M because they didnt know which size i was), a bag &a bangle. thanks loves! <3

AND.
ching came to nus on thursday! met charissa, rah, zhen &bright for lunch before ching joined us. and we got free shirts from youth.sg! HAHA. just to write our motivations down (:

AND.
meetups with the girls today! sherilyn &jess bought me a cute polka dotted bikini for my belated birthday (: thanks babes <3
&we went shopppppping before rah&i got pangsehed by the other two.

shucks. i really dont want to go to school.

happy belated birthday jeremy (BROTHHHER!) (:

happy 5th.

2009-01-12T11:47:00.001+08:00

first day back to school! :(

happy 5th baby (:

i hate this part.

2009-01-11T16:34:00.000+08:00

the world slows down
but my heart beats fast right now
i know this is the part

i hate this part right here.

last week.

2009-01-05T22:11:00.004+08:00

i'm determined to make this last week last as long as possible.

friday: christmas tree pulling down even though the 12days of christmas isnt up :(
saturday: sending dennis off (STUPIIID BOY who didnt tell us earlier you were going off) &girlfriends day with rah (:
sunday: church, then meetups with zhen, yixian &kenchin!

today: underwater world where a cuttlefish turned its back on me &inched its butt towards the glass (GRUMBLES) &butterfly kingdom which is obviously not very wonderfully maintained.

on an angrier note,
please do NOT take our hospitality for granted. i've already overlooked the fact that no consideration is done when coming over to stay &you take it for granted that we have space, but i CANNOT overlook the fact that YOU have the cheek to take my mother for granted &take her as your chauffeur. YOU have two feet &a damn ezlink card, as well as a pair of eyes, so you jolly well use them &find your own way around. even if you decide you're lazy, there's always a cab, so use your arms &flag one down. dont WHINE about having to travel from one place to another, when it's only about 25minutes or less away. if you decide to travel to the east after that, that's YOUR own problem &dont expect my mom to send you back to changi even if you are able to travel down.

GRRR.

happy belated birthday to shahul &xavier (:

happy new year.

2009-01-01T22:26:00.001+08:00

i dont know what's going on,
but you dont seem to care anyway.

so much for a happy new year.

--------

2009.

2009-01-01T03:04:00.005+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR
PULL YOUR EARRRRRS!

here's to a brand new year &many more wonderful things to come <3

I LOVE EACH &EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU (:

6th day.

2008-12-30T00:51:00.002+08:00

i guess overall this trip back to m'sia was a fruitful one (:
we:
- celebrated christmas eve dinner at the ship
- watched yesman through the countdown
- spent most of christmas in the car
- celebrated granddad's birthday
- did NOT find any arcade :(

and i suddenly realize it is pointless to update,
so i shall stop here until i think of something.

happy 6th day of christmas (:

happy christmas.

2008-12-24T01:53:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVE/EARLY CHRISTMAS!

leaving for m'sia in a few hours, though i really dont feel like going :(
on a happier note, the christmas party was a blast,
AND I REALLY FEEL LIKE HOLDING ANOTHER ONE. but zhen will kill me :P
(no pictures taken on my side cos i was too lazy to take my camera out)

*yawns*

happy early birthday RACHELWONGGG (:

hide all the damage.

2008-12-20T23:53:00.002+08:00

i'll hide all the bruises,
i'll hide all the damage that's done.

and just swallow the damn thing &try to forget about it.
smart?

no.
so damn stupid.

happy belated birthday to huiyi &rachel cheong (:

hey shawty, it's your birthday.

2008-12-19T02:22:00.006+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHINGGG!

this post is dedicated to a beloved sweet girl, FOONGSOOKCHING.

the girl i've known since kindergarten but we didnt talk until sec two,
the girl who i've been studying with since sec two till j2,
the girl who i saw almost everyday for the entire j2 year,
the girl who got me started with touch rugby in the first place,
the girl who would stay back &wait for me to finish school so we could go home together,
the girl who i would stay back &wait for her to finish school so we could go home together,
AND.
the girl who woke up with me at 8am to go to the mango sale even though exams were around the corner. (HAHA.)

the girl who never fails to try to keep in contact with me no matter how far apart we go,
the girl i thought of calling first when i went through my first breakup,
the girl who actually picked up my call at that unearthly hour when i finally decided to call,
the girl who felt upset with me when we went to different schools,
the girl who i've spent three out of her many birthdays with her watching lord of the rings 1, 2 &3,
the girl who never fails to try to make my birthday the most special one i could ever have each year,
the girl who always frees her birthday for me to celebrate for her &with her each year,
the girl who always seems to know what i'm thinking just by looking at my face,
AND.
the girl who's so close to me that we used to be able to complete each other's sentences (though i have no idea if we still have that power. hahaha).

THANKS BABE, ILOVEYOU!
cheers to the many more years of friendship to come (:
<3

you think you understand someone when you really dont.

2008-12-16T22:54:00.003+08:00

i'm HOMEFROMSHANGHAI! (:

259piccctures to be up soon! somehow. maybe not all.
upcoming events:
- 18dec; sim bash
- 19dec; CHING'S BIRTHDAY!
- 20dec; sherman's performance
- 22dec; CHRISTMAS PARTY!

cantwaitcantwait.

perhaps things happened for a reason.

2008-12-09T03:06:00.003+08:00

i had a GREAT BIRRRRTHDAY!

this is how my birthday went:
1) breakfast at prata cafe
2) lunch at his place
3) "bolt" for my first surprise
4) shopping around
5) second surprise
5) thai express
6) shopping!
7) outback steakhouse for dinner
8) supper at holland v

greatest biggest thanks to MYLOVVVELY SISTER, FOONGSOOKCHING, HSUZHENYANG, TIMOTHYYONG aka didi, EUGENETOH, TIMOTHYXIE aka CHAOANGMOH, BEHXIAOHUI, KYNNETHCHANG, CHONGWENHAN aka lembu, BRIGHTONG &MARCUS SENG (:
I LOVE YOU GUYYYYS!
they surprised me at the marina gv when we went to watch BOLT. haha. and bright&marcus surprised me after the show with bunny ears, balloons (lots &lots of balloons) &pizza with relight-able candles.

another great big thanks to SARAHLOW, DENNISCHAN &MARCCHAN (:
LOVVVVVE YOU!
we went for supper at holland v brekos,
did some catching up, managed to get my eye on a new phone, AND.
got to hitch a ride home for marc. HEHE.

hugggest thanks to those who got me wonderful presents/sent your well wishes, be it via sms, calling or facebook/was actually roped into the surprise(s) but couldnt make it! (:

you guys seriously know how to make a girl feel special on this wonderful day.
THANKYOUUU MY LOVES! <3
(:

ade is a happy girl (:

it's not the same anymore, but i still love you.

2008-12-07T12:11:00.003+08:00

ADELINE IS POOPED.

she went to collect the racepacks at the expo on saturday,
headed for her sister's recital where she found out she's SHALLOW (and lovin' it),
then went for supper at wala's until 1am.

she went to sleep at about close to 2am,
woke up at 5.30am, &dragged her ass down to the esplanade to RUN (yes, i paid to kill myself).
she ran FIVE KILOMETERS, before the was faced with the benjamin sheares bridge &decided that walking was more of her forte
and that she loves 100plus.

my legs are tired as hell,
but i came home &went online to a pleasant surprise! (:

FROM EUNNNICE. it was on her blog! mighty sweet <3
THANKS GIRL I LOVVVE YOUU! (:

and. and.
MEEEEETING CHING &POSSIBLY RAH LATER. whoot.

i love the end of exams.

elf yourself.

2008-12-05T11:36:00.001+08:00

Send your own ElfYourself eCards

put the past behind.

2008-12-05T01:29:00.003+08:00

exams are ovvver!
WHOOTWHOOT.

thanks to my sweetboy for surprising me by celebrating my birthday 4days early (because he thought he was going to be out of the country on my birthday. HAHA.)! he bought me the fredperry bag i've been eyeing on for weeks/months, yellow roses &chocolates (:

we may have our ups &downs, but thankfully they turn out right in the end (:

PLUS. I HAVE SO MANY THINGS TO ACCOMPLISH.
and that includes getting new havis with sherm, kristen &the mysterious other person we have yet to find!
my timeline for the next few days:
1) emiko's bbq
2) sister's recital
3) hanjing's bbq
4) standard charter run (WOE IS ME; KILL ME NOW I DONT WANT TO RUNNNN)
5) MY BIRRRRTHDAY
6) touch rugby chalet
*7) supposed sentosa outing with sidney, felle &people i'm supposed to ask BUT SIDNEYWONG GUANJIE and FELLELIM SHAOWEI I AM VERY LAZY TO ORGANIZE LEHHH CAN YOU TWO PLEASE DO THE ORGANIZING OR AT LEAST HELP OUT PRETTY PLEASE :D

and. and. and.
the most important of all:
8) SHANGHAI WITH SARAHLOW and THESISTER who decided last minute to join us!

and. and. and.
i need to SHOP for stuff to bring to shanghai (earth to SARAHLOW WANLIN! do youuu copy!) so i will not freeze to death over there.

and. and. and.
DENNISCHAN SHENHAN IS BACK AGAIN AT LAST! (and he didnt tell me until he touched down *sharp glare*)

(:
I LOVE AFTER EXAM HOLIDAYS (before the results come out).

shikes this post is too bubbly as compared to the previous few. hahaha.

let the rain fall down.

2008-12-03T00:32:00.003+08:00

adeline feels sick.
she has been feeling hot &cold,
and her stomach feels queasy.

adeline is unhappy.
she has too many things on her mind,
and is unable to study.

adeline has one more paper.
she wants to feel a sense of liberation,
and cannot wait for thursday, 11am.

adeline wants this:

she promises she will look after it,
and clean up its poop.

:(

happy belated birthday to LUAIHANJING aka husband &DESMONNNNNDLI aka ALMOND (:

still two more.

2008-11-29T17:30:00.002+08:00

STILL TWO MORE PAPERS SINCE THE LAST TIME I UPDATED. pfft.

so the exams arent over yet,
and there're alot of things on my mind.

and my granddad's back in hospital.

i will get through this.
somehow.

i'll try to not notice.

2008-11-25T21:48:00.002+08:00

"you've grown so fat" (my aunt, 2008)

+

"watching television can in fact reduce a person's metabolic rate" (Morrison & Bennett, 2006)

= SHIT. now i know why.

TWO MORE PAPERS TO GO!

that's not my name.

2008-11-24T23:56:00.002+08:00

i had something to update just now,
but now i simply CANNOT REMEMBER.

and i have a post-it buddy by the name of KRISTENKIONG.

and i have an abnormal psych paper IN A FEW HOURS TIMMME.
not done studying yet (DAMMMMIT, WHY DID I PROCRASTINATE.), but i'm going to sleep anyway.

so screwed.

g'night world.

pieces dont fit anymore.

2008-11-19T21:23:00.001+08:00

ADE IS..

GOING TO SHANGHAI WITH THIS KUKU GIRRRRRL (:

whoot.
now i really cant wait for exams to end.

the pieces dont fit anymore.

happy belated birthday to JARENCHIAM aka econs buddy changed to psych buddy (:

wonderful world.

2008-11-16T21:53:00.002+08:00

and i know it's a wonderful world but i cant feel it right now
well, ~~i thought that i was doing well~~ but i just want to cry now
well, i know that it's a wonderful world from the sky down to the sea
but i can only see it when you're here, here with me.

chryz's coming back this upcoming week;
jon's coming back this upcoming week (FOUR years of not seeing each other!);
my cousins are coming down from m'sia.

exams start this upcoming week too :(
*wails*

get through this.

2008-11-13T23:17:00.002+08:00

sigh.
the exams are getting into everyone.
past few days i've been STRESSED, PISSY, IRRITATED, etc.

and now i dropped my laptop. *screammms*

i will get through this.
:(

3rd month&counting.

2008-11-12T00:13:00.006+08:00

to you,
3rd month &counting.
<3

sunflowers.

2008-11-09T00:05:00.002+08:00

sunflowers.

okay. past few days were REALLY eventful.
for the first time since shifting to my current place,
i finally met ONE terrible neighbour, who is thankfully not staying at the same block as i am.

grr.

AND. there is no lighter note cos the exams are here &it's time to panic.
*ARRRHHHHHH*

happy belated birthday to LEE WEILI aka GENBIO budddd &last sem's studybuddy, SHELDON, andre, bryna, sherman, sky, hongqing, priscilla, guanjie, david &tom (:

blame yourself.

2008-11-07T00:27:00.003+08:00

ade is UNHAPPY.

things to note:

1) you do NOT get out of your parking lot &speed down the lane. please use your brain; you are in a CARPARK for goodness sake. nobody speeds in a carpark, unless it has the layout of an f1 track.

2) if you get into an accident, you do NOT blame whatever happened SOLELY on the other party. pressurizing &proclaiming "do you admit is your fault" may be scary to the person in concern, but obviously ridiculous to an outsider.

3) you do NOT try to change the subject, ignore or avoid eye contact with the person who has just witnessed that you were speeding. you are a GROWN MAN, who should know by now that one should be responsible for his own actions and not pin the blame solely on others.

4) you may feel that the witness is unreliable, but if there are FOUR witnesses, then please reflect and notice that something is wrong with you.

5) if you say you saw someone speed down the other lane, please use your common sense and HIT ON THE BRAKES. yes, it might be your right of way, but a normal person would think of preventing the accident first rather than having his "right of way".

(e.g. if a pedestrian is crossing a zebra crossing &sees a car speeding down, his first reaction would be to quickly move out of the way instead of continue walking like an idiot simply because it's his right to.)

6) pick on somebody your own size. and in your case. age as well.

7) you do NOT need to hire a car just to get to work for ONE day. singapore's public transport system is quite efficient at times. IF you feel that taking a bus or mrt is too demeaning for you, do not worry. we have MERCS cabs as well.

8) you do NOT twist the story so it makes you seem like a perfect angel. the size of your wife's eyes grew to the size of pingpong balls when she found out that you were speeding.

9) you do NOT pretend to disregard &deny the fact you were speeding, as you were obviously guilty in point THREE.

10) if YOU happen to read this &you feel unhappy, it just means you're guilty. HAH.

lying to myself.

2008-11-01T15:14:00.003+08:00

RUGBYLEAGUEWORLDCUP 08' + AVENUE Q (which i totally forgot i was watching tmr)
= DIEDIEDIE CONFIRM WONT CONCENTRATE ON STUDYINGGG.

:(

okay i should be doing my film&history essay.
pfft.

happppy birthday to YINGGGG (: (:

halloween.

2008-10-31T10:38:00.003+08:00

HAPPPPPY HALLOWEEN! (:

(:

I'M IN ABNORMAL PSYCH CLASS NOW AND MY PRESENTATION'S OVVVVVER!
whoot.
the benefits of going first. but then again, we overshot the time by accident, so our conclusion went as fast as a bullet train.

and.
i've went running THREE times this week,
even though only a small handful believe me :(

happy belated birthday to kristie, dud, zhenhui, daphne &shermaine (:
happy birthday to dominique, mel, vivian &hweeguang (:

right here, right now.

2008-10-26T23:13:00.002+08:00

perhaps i was immature in thinking that running away was the problem,
but i prayed for days &somehow the answer just came to me.
no point sitting &complaining &expecting everything to solve by itself.
no, i cant say the problem is immediately solved,
and neither can i say that i know everything will definitely be alright.
but someone dear to me reminded me that amidst bad times, what i should do is look for sunflowers (:
and. for now, at least i know i'm trying, and so are they (:

thankyou to those who have been here,
and sorry for those i've unknowingly hurt..
you know who you are (:

------------

can you imagine?
what would happen?
if we could have any dream
i wish this moment
was ours to own it
and that it would never leave
then i would thank that star
that made our wish come true
cos he knows that where you are
is where i should be too

right here, right now
i’m looking at you &my heart loves the view
cos you mean everything

out of sight, and out of mind.

2008-10-25T01:51:00.002+08:00

i deleted the last post,
because i cleverly (or stupidly, i'm not very sure) realized it could cause misunderstandings to people it's not directed to.

and besides that, my anger has more or less faded to mere unhappiness,
so *poof* it's gone.

on a very much lighter note,
dad's birthday just passed on thursday (HAPPPY BIRTHDAY DADDDDY!),
and the deck has been my second home.
and the whole world is suddenly turning vegetarian, thanks to rah's introduction of a videos called earthlings or something.
no, i'm not going to watch it. i want to eat meat. that, or because if i dont eat meat i will have nothing left to eat and will starve to death cos i dont eat my ouveggies.

no school on monday!
THANKGOODNESS. really need to catch up with work :(

happy birthday to chryz &jiangyang (:

wheel of the world.

2008-10-22T22:59:00.002+08:00

it's the wheel of the world.
it's the wheel of the world turning around.
in the blink of an eye, it can change your life.
and it never even slows down.

yes, i feel emo.
:(

---------------------------

looking back with regret.

2008-10-22T00:30:00.002+08:00

so it's come to this.
sometimes i look back ®ret.

this is what i've been doing so far:

gotta catch em' all.
HAHAHA.

unfortunately the game's not complete yet,
so i'm stuck viridian city cos pewter city's pokecentre doesnt work.
LOL. i cant believe i'm talking about this.

HSM3.

2008-10-19T17:29:00.003+08:00

HIGHSCHOOLMUSICAL3!

WHHHOOOOT! (:

seven specials.

2008-10-18T00:54:00.002+08:00

DON'T LAUGH IN HIGH SCHOOL.

hahahahaha.
i'll definitely lose this game.
this week has been STRESSFUL. doing research &handing up essays &other stuff i guess.
one essay down, two more to go + one presentation

*wails*

------------------

HAPPPPPY BIRTHDAY
to
TIMOTHYPAUL,
CHARLOTTELIM,
KENNETHCHEONG.
RYANNG,
SAMANTHATAN,
FELLELIM
& PANGXIAOYAN

seven special people who have affected my life in seven different ways (:

could not ask for more.

2008-10-12T00:42:00.002+08:00

lying here with you
listening to the rain
smiling just to see the smile upon your face
these are the moments i thank God that i’m alive
these are the moments i’ll remember all my life

to you,
happy 2nd month <3

totally slipped away.

2008-10-10T23:37:00.002+08:00

i wanted to update,
but somehow the mood totally slipped away from me.

happy belated birthday to shaneet aka flowerboy &kwekyixian (:
HAPPPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHERILYNNICOLESOH (:

adeline.

2008-10-03T16:33:00.004+08:00

second oct; yesterday!

adeline finished her two midterm papers.
adeline left both papers early cos she figured there was no point sitting there if she didnt know the answers.
adeline's stomach seems to be linked to marcus' brain; marcus msged 'meatballs!' just as adeline sat down in ikea.
adeline had meatballs &did not tell her maid not to cook.
HENCE,
adeline had two dinners.
adeline has NOT exercised.
THEREFORE,
adeline's tummy is growing rounder.

third oct; today!

adeline had macgriddles with the boy, sherman, kristen, kynneth, miq &jesmine.
adeline finished lessons at twelve &went with the boy to the it coop.
adeline was full but had waffles for lunch.
adeline went home &added the pokemon application on facebook.
adeline decided to tan.
adeline packed her bottle, book, sunglasses, mp3, tanning oil &headed down.
adeline sat where the sun was, but the sun decided to play catching with adeline.
adeline persevered.
adeline sat where the sun was, but the sun CONTINUED to play catching.
adeline gave up.
THEREFORE,
adeline is the same colour.

:(

HAPPPPPY BIRTHDAY ARIKONG CHUANMING aka BUDDDDEH (:

and it goes round &round.

2008-10-01T01:23:00.003+08:00

somehow it always ends up in a cycle.
yet perhaps since i'm the only one sensing it,
maybe the problem lies with me.

SHUCCCCKS i've got stats &abnormal psych on thurrrsday :(

happy kids' day! (:

boys&girls.

2008-09-28T00:06:00.002+08:00

i've been having ribena withdrawal symptoms.

thankyoudinner08'

myboy's recovering (:
+
yes CHING i miss you like hell. to think we used to see each other EVERYDAY during jc :(
+
charlottelim i miss you like hell as well. the last time we met (if i remember correctly) was jeremy's birthday!
+
happy belated birthday to FLORENCESIEWYUMIN (: i miss you SUPERDUPERUBER much. the last time we met was during gene's birthday! heard your birthday went great thanks to your sweet other half, so i'm really happy for youu (:

i need more ribena. GROWLS.

i wish you wouldnt.

2008-09-24T00:42:00.005+08:00

i have many things to say,
many things that i cant say, but really feel like letting out.
but no, i shall keep my mouth shut
and watch at a distance.
let's see how long things can keep up.

my boy's out of the hospital! (:

thankyou dinner 08' (:
the only picture i have currently cos ISTILLCANNOTFIND MYCAMERACABLE.
great thanks to sarahlow for being my dear camerawoman for the night! (:

congrats to MIQ &JESMINE; i'm super duper uber happy for you two!
happy belated birthday to janet &reina (:
happy birthday to qiyuan (:

built to last.

2008-09-22T00:28:00.004+08:00

surprise!

friday: rah's birthday &belated lantern festival (:

(:

sparklers!

the night was great (:

saturday: DINNER! with zhen, gene, xiaohui, angmoh &clement at hanabi @king's arcade (: it was quite ex, but the food was better than expected, so YAY. haha.
it's times like this which really makes me miss PJ :(
sunday: HAPPPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR JESSICATAN (:
lunch at crystal jade with rah, sherilyn &the birthday girl herself before going to shop around.
plus. my first tuition with russell! the smart boy doesnt need tuition. pfft. i felt more like a babysitter answering random questions than a tuition teacher. hahaha.

------------

to TYLERLIM: HELLO! i've been good i guess. still surviving! haha. how've you been? shoppppping like crazy? haha.

------------

my boy's going for an op in a few hours! :(
shucks. gonna feel all jumpy till 4plus. pffft.

[edit]
okay. now i'm hopppppping mad.
[/edit]

happy belated birthday to emiko, jolene, ho cjuan &JOANNAZHAN aka superb cupcake maker aka my primary school buddy who always exchanged stickers with me (YES furry stickers were the 'in-things' back then, so dont laugh) (:

special loves on this special day.

2008-09-18T00:01:00.002+08:00

<33

HAPPPPPY BIRTHDAY to my beloved MOTHER &SARAHLOWWANLIN (:

two very special loves on this very special day (:

always be my baby.

2008-09-15T23:53:00.002+08:00

when the cats go away, the mice come out to play.

friday night with sis &michkam &ching &zhen.
saturday at interfac swimming &vivo with ying &sam &chow &brother &naga &zhen.
sunday with sis &rah &zhen.

you're the voice i hear inside my head
the reason that i'm singing
you're the missing piece i need
the song inside of me

(:

i'm yours.

2008-09-12T22:24:00.003+08:00

one month
and counting.

<3

happy birthday to bennett, ruben, teresa, huiying &chengwei (:

savagechickens.

2008-09-08T21:18:00.002+08:00

SAVAGE CHICKENS!

HAHA.

okay shoot.
i really should be studying :S

you're my only.

2008-09-06T23:49:00.005+08:00

"I AM VERY HAPPY TODAY."
i spent friday shopppping with the sweethearts sarahlow &sherilynnicolesoh before meeting jessicatan for a short while after (:
then og dinner with zhen, kiwi, febrin, spud, raymond, rebecca, kevin &felle (:
it was small, but damn fun. more og outings to come! i hope. hahaha.
on hindsight, i really did go a little crazy.

spent today lunching with tylerlim! cos he's ~~flying off~~ flew off about less than half an hour ago. i think.
then a small study with session with zhen (:

meeting foongsookching tmr!
whoot. loads to catch up with the sweet girl (:

in this crazy life
and through these crazy times
it's you, it's you
you make me sing

(:

happy birthday to mich, mong, vye rern &ida (:

dreamgirls.

2008-09-05T10:03:00.002+08:00

STATS LECTURE! (:

no, this is not the reason i dont understand stats.
this is what i do BECAUSE i dont understand stats.

(:

happy birthday to kenneth teo (:

twisted.

2008-09-03T22:14:00.002+08:00

it's twisted, messed up and the more i think about it
it's crazy, but so what?
i may never understand it
i'm caught up &i'm hanging on

days have been good.
days have been bad.
days have been okay.

stats assignment due tmr;
film &history due on friday;
og dinner on friday;
tyler flies off on saturday;
and, if it works out, most likely meeting my sweet CHINGGSTER on sunday.

i must stop.

i'm so glad my sister's home.

happy birthday to derek (:
happy belated birthday stefanie, jerome, brenda, geraldine &HUAYUAN aka MY SWEET GARDEN JUNIORRR (:

no air.

2008-08-31T00:31:00.002+08:00

SIS IS HOME! (:

the past one week has been crazy i guess.
tutorials have started &the work's already piling in.
pfft.

plus.
i'm currently at rop &i now possess ~~six~~ five blisters!
:( gwarrrh.

happy birthday to EUNICENG aka BARBARIAN SISTER &karen (:
happy belated birthday to xiangyang (:

these are the moments.

2008-08-25T00:44:00.002+08:00

maybe you're right.

artsbash08' (:

eventful moments;
- rah's damn pretty dress = $999 = CRAP
- food = mashed potatoes at zouk = yummmmy (:
- heineken bottles + wallet on table = beer on wallet = DAMN
- phone missing = phone on floor in three parts (but THANKGOODNESS all the same. i'd rather it be in three parts than with a stranger as a WHOLE)
- EUGENEKOH = buckets &buckets of beer (which obviously explains the belly, HAHA, but you know you're still loved yeah :P)

------------------------

PLUS.
meetups with rah &sherilyn today! (: jess couldnt come :(

eventful moments;
- sherilyn experiencing sudden rain shortage = no brolly required = sudden downpour = drenched people
- squished deformed reese's = yummy all the same
- camera in laptop = camwhoring session one
- dinner = walking with colourful brollies in the rain
- camera in bags = camwhoring session two

LOVVVE <3
cos you know they really know how to make you smile.

happy birthday to willis, brandon &maosheng (:
happy belated birthday to rod, james, natalie &eileen (:

it hurts if it comes from you.

2008-08-21T01:08:00.003+08:00

deadlines, deadlines, deadlines.
URRGH.
school's just started &i already need a break :(

we all live in a downright damn judgmental world.
thanks alot.

happy belated birthday to elena (weiching!), ngiap &sherlyn (:

jamnhop.

2008-08-19T11:43:00.002+08:00

whoot.

jamnhop at the arena (:

so many things have been happening lately.
and i guess you could say it's both good &bad.
pffft.

to sarahlowwanlin; you can call me anytime you &i promise my phone wont vibrate onto the floor like it did last time &i'll hear it! (: somehow.
to foongsookching; you're still my sweetheart, so dont think that i wont have time for you already okay! girlfriends over guys. promise (:
to sherilynnicolesoh; SORRY your items are still with me &i havent met up with you&jess&rah for a gazillion years! i promise i will try to find you at work soon (:

bahh.
the work's piling in already. i kinda miss the good old days :(

happy birthday to sherlyn (:
happy belated birthday to mingguang, weicheng &grace (:

i need to know.

2008-08-17T16:39:00.002+08:00

time passes too fast for my liking.
congrats to marcchan for making it into biz finals! (:

i need to know.

happy birthday to amanda &yuhan (:
happy belated birthday to dingfeng (:

12th august.

2008-08-15T21:59:00.005+08:00

(:

12th august.

----------------

i used to say things indirectly,
in fear that perhaps i may hurt someone's feelings.
but regarding you, i really dont give a damn.

get the hell out of my life (AND the life of those around me) once &for all.
i'm not the same girl as i once was, and i'll never believe anything you say.
perhaps you used to be a damn good sweet-talker, but your words dont work anymore.
what tricks are you resorting to now?
calling up others to gain sympathy by reminiscing the past?
BULLSHIT. stop cooking up stories &just f off.

my memory may not be that good, but i know what you told her was a damn lie.
stop making up excuses for what happened in the past. stop making yourself sound like a poor little lamb under the attack of the vicious wolves of rumours.
i happen to trust my friends more than i will ever trust you, because unlike you, they have earned my trust&respect, while you, on the other hand, have earned NOTHING. not even along those lines.

i used to tell myself that hating you is tiring,
and that forgiveness was the way to go.
but now i've realized. telling myself to forgive you is even more tiring; i shall just assume that you dont exist.
and in repetition, i sincerely hope you read this: NO, we can NEVER be friends again, no matter how much you've claimed to change, or how much you think i have supposedly misunderstood you in the past.

have a nice life.

----------------

happy belated birthday to miq, zhengchuan, kenneth, kenny, meiyi, jason, sanjay, siqi, eugene&yvonne (:

the world doesnt revolve around you.

2008-08-11T10:57:00.002+08:00

saturday: shopping with the parents at og,
dinner with the bald neighbour &my parents &his parents,
then b&j's &borders with zhen.

sunday: church in the morning, lunch at ntu,
packing up &dismantling of the float,
celebratory dinner at naga's place,
'money not enough 2' at cine.

school starts today *wails*
i really really dont feel like it :(

for the tenth millionth time,
i'm damn frickin' shagged.
emotionally drained for the fact that i dont know what's going on.

tired. so tired.

happy birthday to mich (:
happy belated birthday to qiaozhi, lembu, shaun &deb (:

ARTSRAG08'.

2008-08-09T15:04:00.004+08:00

happy national day! (:

ARTSRAG08'.

we won most environmentally friendly float &best faculty float! (:
and we also look damn shagged in the picture. hahaha.
greatest thanks to:
the rag OCOMM aka the team who started it all before the exams &carried on throughout after the exams
YING aka my beloved sister who has been there all the way for me, protecting me &keeping me sane
NAGA aka my bangla boss who should definitely be the proudest guy alive now
CONFAB SOCIETY &my 'husband' aka the people who came down to slog with us &keep ying &i going throughout rag preps
ZHEN aka my taxi driver coming down for rag &slogging with us &sending me home every night you have your car
JOHN aka my famous amos cookies supplier &new psych buddy (IF we take the same mods)
TARPAULIN TEAM aka the great SIX of us who pulled the tarpaulin open during the performance as well as the great SIX who solved the tarpaulin problem in less than 5seconds
WILLIS aka my new 'owner' &new found rag friend
DES aka my honey water supplier &old friendship revival buddy who i now declare no longer owes me watermelon

<3

thanks to every single one of you for being there for me (:

school starts in two days!
this is what you call a great way to end off the holidays (:

get out &get gone.

2008-08-06T01:21:00.002+08:00

you put on quite a show
really had me going
but now it's time to go
curtain's finally closing

. . .

tried to blog last night,
but i ended up falling asleep in front of the com.

past few days have been BUSYASHELL.
sunday: church, tanning with rah, then back to school for rag (:
thanks to yingg for everything. LOVEYOU babe. somehow good friends seem to turn up at the right times.

monday: rag oweek performance! was supposed to be in school at EIGHT but i ended up reaching at NINE :S
helped abit for makeup for the dancers, and made eugene look like he got punched in the face. HAHA.
+
thanks to weili for the kindersurprise (:

tuesday: I AM SKILLED! (:
ahahah. i can FOLD CANS. muahaha.
+
got a visit from sidney! even though he came just to show me his new phone. IDIOT. i almost killed him.
+
ragbanner &shirts came. WHOOT. made me damn high.

tmr (or rather, today): second last day to do soft tech before hands off at 1am friday morning. MUSTMUST CHIONG.

DIE.

hard to trust.

2008-08-03T01:12:00.004+08:00

ragday's comingg &i've been frickin' shagged.
not to mention i've been getting ten million scratches all over my hands/arms/legs.
the only things i've managed to squeeze into my life was eugene's housewarming &mini kbox &lunch today with eunice, ying, brother &yj,
all three of which were GREAT, thanks to the company.
really miss the old gang (:

sorry to helmi &sheldon &the rest for missing out today! :(

happy belated birthday to winsome, jon ong, leon (yao ming!) &marcus seng (:
happy birthday to helmi (:

some things will never change.

2008-07-25T05:15:00.006+08:00

after i read everything,
i seriously dont know whether to laugh or to cry,
whether to be sympathetic or to mock.
history is repeating itself.

in more ways than one,
some things will never change,
&some sayings will always come true.

sick of the game.

happy belated birthday to marissa, stacey, kaimin, kim &alastair (:
happy birthday to tyler (:

dont stop the music.

2008-07-19T23:14:00.002+08:00

i wish time would start crawling.

in three weeks, it'd be rag day.
in four weeks, lectures officially start.
in five weeks, des flies off for the rest of the semester.
in six weeks, tutorials officially start.
in seven weeks, sis comes home.

argh.
i wish i was a freshie all over again
:(

well, you done done me &you bet i felt it.

2008-07-18T21:52:00.004+08:00

past few days have been nothing but raggg.

tuesday: RAG.
wednesday: RAG. plus a stayover. supper at alazhar with euuunice, yingg, zhen, brother, yongjun &shaneet before heading back to sch for RAG. worked till about 6plus, then headed to temasek hall to sleep. SIX people in one room, even though we had 5 more room keys. totally got steamrolled over by brother. he took 7/8 of the bed while i was left with 1/8. my retribution for giving ying&shaneet only 1/2 of the bed at first.

thursday: woke up at 10plus, showered, returned the temasek keys &headed back for RAG. was seriously half-dead, showing that i seriously have no willpower to do stayovers. lunch at the deck, then RAG again for a short while. tried to drive brother's manual car, but i stalled it THREE times. this is why i'm totally not cut out for driving. thanks to zhen for the lift home (: concussed at 7.40pm, woke for dinner, then concussed again at 9.40pm till the next morning. MY BEST SLEEP YET (:

friday: woke up all bright &cheery cos i got enough sleep. went to 6th ave, got kevin's cake, then headed down to school for RAG. john showed me something weirdly hilarious at 7plus-8 at night. HAHA. must, must go check things out again =P

sheldon's in hospital :(
hope everything gets better soon, tall guy (:

happy belated birthday to sabrina &amanda tay (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEVINLUOSHIJUN! (:

waltzing matilda.

2008-07-14T23:37:00.005+08:00

PRESENTS FROM MOM! (:

WHOOOOT.
from left to right:
supre vest
absolut raspberri
jellybeans
a koala bear (IT SINGS THE OLD AUSTRALIA ANTHEM CAN YOU BELIEVE IT)
a handphone chain
a mini wallabies rugby ball
CHOPSTICKS (my maid has one too, so i think we're both eager to eat noodles now)
a brown pouch (a gift from my sister's landlady)
NUTELLA (MUAHAHAHA)
a stuffed seal (which is, thankfully, silent).
SOCKS!
and a checked blouse.

i highly doubt i'd be able to sleep with that koala. accidentally rolling on it would probably be like an alarm clock for me =S

shake it.

2008-07-13T22:57:00.002+08:00

sis flew off two weeks ago. chryz flew off a few hours ago.
dad flies off tmr morning. mom returns tmr night.
there's only didi &i left! *wails*

supper at ps cafe! (:

with ying, brother, hanjing &zhenyang.

i really really dont want school to start.

happy belated birthday to ivan (:

teardrops on my guitar.

2008-07-12T01:05:00.002+08:00

so many things, so little time.

it's been fun spotting spies.
no, it's not that we're good at this; it's more like they seriously suck at doing it.

+
i'm beginning to successfully acquire this thing called the filter.
in &out.

+
i'm finally recovering, though mambo on wednesday &og bbq (but no regrets on this one cos it was seriously DAMN GOOD) at hj's house made things alot worse.

+
i think i'm getting used to sleeping without the aircon on.
and it's actually quite nice. that, or i'm just subconsciously trying to console myself.

pfft.

this is what friendship means.

2008-07-07T00:28:00.002+08:00

fireworks at sherilyn's house!

this is what friendship means (:

her mom cooked her great prawn mee, pulot hitam &brought out other goodies, before we trooped down one street away with chairs. YES, we brought our own chairs. we looked like idiots, but at least we were comfortable ones.

i finally know what's going on,
but i cant say i understand.
or maybe, i simply just dont agree.
maybe we just defined the term 'friendship' a little differently.

happy birthday to sarah hoon, marc, cheryl loy &evelyn (:
happy belated birthday to jesmine (:

push it.

2008-07-04T21:04:00.006+08:00

this is how my days after artscamp went:
- dad came back from US, mom &sis flew off to sydney two hours after
- rag
- confabulation society
- dad flew off to manila (aka home alone with mary)
- rag
- supper with rah, jo, dennis &ivan
- dad returns
- rag welcome tea

mom's extending her stay in sydney. BAH.
i miss my sister :(

anyway the rest of this is going to be a picture post!

1) if i'm not recovering, it's because i've been indulging in this:

AND.

shucks. sometimes you just cant resist some things. UTTER SINFULNESS.

2) please join THE FELLE OFFICIAL FAN CLUB if you know felle lim shao wei.
click HERE.

3) SHANEET for ARTS KING (or queen, whichever you prefer, really) 08!
click HERE.

i've been trying,
but pushing seems to be your forte.
and if that's your definition,
then perhaps things are better left the way they are now.

happy birthday to farhan (:
happy belated birthday to mag, weizhong, dennis, john &teckyen (: